Racism at Eastern Virginia Medical School (EVMS) and some Virginia Hospitals

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EVMS dismissed me from school near graduation. First of all I loved EVMS, I even loved the people that hated me (lol), that is just the truth, I have no hate in me, I love them - but they were and are wrong. All those that hate my skin color and identity as a black, African and woman they are wrong. All those that undermine my abilities to do my job or to learn science and medicine are wrong. It was almost impossible to be at school or clinical rotations. They wanted me to know more than others or otherwise laugh at me if I was the same; but then if I did better than others, they wanted to say that it was because they made it too easy or it is just because of some other reason (like I am just good at cramming and they made up the idea that I must be bad at applying). It was some white people believing that they are so intelligent that they knew me better than I know myself, and they made me sit and listen to them tell me about myself. They agreed and all (just like the stupid movies some white people make about Africans, where they act like Africans don’t have a similar powerful brain that can think just the same). There was always a problem, they did not understand me, why God gifted me to be African, to be the same and different at the same time. I believe that Africans and their descendants are the missing link to science and medicine, and their ways of doing things and thinking is not dumb, but it is important to science and medicine. All human intelligence and wisdom is important especially when we are faced with diseases in the world and many patients. We have been doing medicine our own ways for a long time, we built the Great Zimbabwe, yes our ancestors, and now, the present generations, we have been learning western science and medicine in modern days. In fact, western science is international science, scientific ideas and medical inventions also include Africans and African descendants. Our ways to talking or expressing ourselves are not wrong, and our abilities to solve certain types of problems easier are a blessing to science. The white way is not the only way, or the Asian way; the African way, the black way has to be opened wider and wider, all the way in modern science and medicine. We are being blocked from breathing and enjoying science and medicine. If students struggle to get support in college and to work-study, it is almost many more times harder for black students. Black professors are few, but they help all students. In USA, I only had one black science professor. Sometimes, white professors don’t see black students, they are satisfied with just connecting to their white students and that’s it, and may be some Asians. This happens when physicians and professors are also supposed to train black medical professionals. They don’t know anything real and true about black people, or Africans, they are biased, so they sink us or just don’t see us, but if we are lucky we are noticed and we are taken in with the others, the white students and all. We don’t ask for charity, we ask for what belongs to us; equal education and opportunities. Africa is not poor and was never poor, Africa was and is being robed. We deserve to be in schools and have jobs around the world and in the USA, because we were used for free or cheap labor around the world, including in our own continent. Education that doesn’t include Africans and their descendants, is not a good education; if it allows room for constant racism and doesn’t open up to the knowledge and intelligence that Africa has to offer the world it is a poor education. Blocking black history from schools is also a terrible education. To thrive we must embrace the truth and work together as one human race. Africa has paid a lot to the west, by labor and resources (it was forced out of our ancestors, certain greedy people exploit Africa and its descendants around the world) and Africans and their descendants deserves places at schools and to graduate in the USA and anywhere in the world. EVMS is one of the schools that has robbed Africa, they just snatched what they could from me, just because they could; just because I have the audacity to talk about justice and equal treatment. Just because who knows - they won’t tell me why they kicked me out of school. If what they did was righteous, they would have said it loud and clear and on the roof; but they kept it in the deep dark secret. They didn’t even write me a formal letter, they wrote me a one sentence email dismissing me from school - one sentence I repeat. That is so inhumane. This is what we call a medical school. In the USA, many more black babies die each year than any other race. What kind of training are our professors and doctors giving students if they can’t even know Africans are not inferior; but are normal people that can be sat down with at home and have lunch with. Africans are not a charity chase, but have always deserved to be given what is owed to them by nations around the world. For diamond, gold, wood, minerals and even worse of all labor of the people forced to them in and around the world, Africans and their descendants deserve to be paid by education, hospitals, food, and many more things. Africa has given, and Africa was never poor, and Africa does deserve its share, because God made enough for the whole world to have. I earned my work at EVMS and at the hospitals I worked at in addition to the work my ancestors were forced to endure. I deserved to graduate in Virginia, where they took my people so that I can be a Pathologist’s Assistant then Medical Doctor afterwards if Lord willing I returned to studying for my MD now that I am well. I got so strong at EVMS, I recovered; and then racism grew and took me down. There is no winning in the USA? That is not why I became a citizen. I became a citizen because I believe in freedom and liberation of peoples, especially giving African Americans what they do deserve and of course Africa itself. My people should not be dying in this nation; not anymore. Black Physicians Assistants, and many more doctors should be trained and not hindered in this nation; black scientists must be multiplied in this nation. Black workers should be paid enough to have for food and rent in this nation of the United States of America. We must give Africans and African Americans what is theirs, true freedom and high quality education, healthy food and good housing. There should be no more modern day slavery where people expect black people to be the servants; where white people, and others look at black people, as the lowest and most incapable people in the universe - when that is all lies. We need our doctors to multiply in the USA, our Pathologists and Pathologist’s Assistants, our Physician Assistants, Scientists and more. Black people must be fully allowed to be who they are without being hindered by racism, bullying and lies.

It is possible that many racist people do not believe or think that they are racist. Yet there are those that know it. All I say is forgive them Father, for they do not know what they are doing. Life is hard for everyone, and good also, but it is true that white people have made life really hard for black people, but then many black people, many Africans love white people, some even love them more than their own people. Love is a gift. Everyone must be loved, God made beautiful colors when he created humanity. Africa opening up hands to the west was a beautiful thing; it was not supposed to be used to do evil or to steal people (kidnap) and things, or use them as slaves in their own land if not abroad. It is time for white people to learn to love Africans the same. It is time for people to say it is not right for black people to be the most poor people in the USA; there should not be race divisions in the USA. It is time to give to black people. Not as charity, after all we are not poor, the west has African resources, and yes they need to bring at least more food and medications to Africa as a thank you (after all, they took a lot and take a lot from Africa for free if not by force; or they use bad people to get stuff from Africa). The people in the world must love one another. now let’s talk about this racism, it’s like any bullying and hating, sometimes white people also bullied each other and hated each other; but there is serious hate against blacks, and it needs to stop, especially in the medical field where a lot of black people are dying. It is not right that EVMS participated in racism and initiated some of it against me. It is not right that racism continues around the world. It is time to destroy the lies of white supremacy and reinforce equality and justice at another level like never before. With modern technology where hatred spread fast; truths about human equality must be spread even faster. Leaders that are racist or discriminating against others must be disciplined or punished. Black people must not be the only ones that get punished in the USA for most things, even things that they did not even do. I was simply punished for being black and doing a good job at the hospital learning how to be a good Pathologist’s Assistant. The punishments in this country are highly unjust. There is no way for us to live. Even when educated we are being taken down sometimes. People’s hate for black people must be destroyed by a stronger system just like the system than planted slavery and colonization. We must not let African Americans, Africans and minorities and few majority ring the sound of Freedom alone. There must be new national reminders at schools and everywhere about equality. African Americans and African must have more than black history month, they need so much more to be given them; they must be well compensated and well educated ; and they must be well employed and paid like white Americans. It is not okay to continue to take us down because we are black, we shouldn’t have to work so hard to do the same thing. There are so many patients, and there is cancer, we need to be focused and working instead of being distracted by racism. We are being drained or discouraged if we do show ourselves strong enough to endure the silly and evil racism.

Trying to be a doctor or advanced scientist is one good way to be poor in the USA, than when you where when you first begun. I graduated High School with High Honors, and racism began my Freshman year. That costed me, but I finally made it to medical school, then I got sick, wasn’t given financial aid when I returned, so I went to train as a PathA, in hopes to still be a doctor one day. I rarely talk about being discriminated by other students, but yes, and professor or more, it was life, I am used to it. I should not be, but I am.

I thought I was going to be okay in Virginia, the world was changing. so I went. A lot happened, I bottled it in and endured; and sometimes spoke freely. After 2 years at EVMS they didn’t apologize to me for the discriminating words some preceptors said to me at the hospitals they sent me to. This is the horrific thing that came to my mind as I was getting ready tutoring material for my student. I remember one preceptor said that I am “unteachable", and I should not be allowed to be with patients. Why did EVMS not stand up for me, that was such a wicked thing that she said about me, surely nobody is unteachable, even a baby is. That preceptor knew I wanted to be a doctor, I wanted to try at least. When she found out she was so jealous, however, nobody was stopping her from dreaming except herself. She just decided to hate me. I can understand if I made a mistake, like any student I should face consequences, but she decided to hate me. Jealousy can become really strong hate. Racism is believing a black person should stay underneath and not be of equal status or title and definitely not be above, there are so many ways one can be racism. She wanted to be my boss forever.

About a year later, a professor said that it will be very difficult for me to get a PhD and that “something was fundamentally wrong with my brain.” Yes, racism from a University of Pittsburgh (Pitt), University of Pittsburgh Medical Center (UPMC) professor. Racism against Africans comes from people of all races, whites, Asians and more, and discrimination from other Africans. This black hate that came because countries like Britain went to lie to people about white supremacy around the world. However, to God there is no white supremacy, we are all equal human beings, I am serious. I was discriminated and I am used to it, but sometimes, it was way way out of control, like at EVMS and Virginia Hospitals. Not every place in Virginia was bad, I had a great time at the military hospital; it was awesome! However, the racism that took place between the hospitals and EVMS against me shocks me. I was so hated by some, not all, but it only takes one or few white people to start a trend to destroy a black person; because the world still hasn’t healed from colonization and slavery completely. I had fun at Pitt - UPMC many times when growing up since college, but I always knew some people will not like me, but overall I was more welcomed by Pitt - UPMC and schools in the North and WashU. Not too long ago, at Pitt-UPMC, I did face discrimination there that made me walk out one time. I just left. This is because at EVMS I had endured it. I endured it for so long, and it got worse and they dismissed me on top of that. People just hate black people, it is amazing to me why people just hate Africans. I was raised around diversity, but hate is something I have seen from inside the family all the way to racism and disability discrimination. When I was sick; not a lot of compassion came my way because I am black. In fact I was accused for making things up or frowned upon. I had this faith that hopefully one day the Lord will allow me to be better. It astonishes me how people don’t like black people, especially black women, and the more African one is the more disliked they are by some, it astonishes me how people don’t have empathy for the sick, especially if they are black. This is why I am writing. I am hoping that we talk about if black people should be doctors, health professionals and scientists, because apparently; not a lot of people really want to take care of black people with equal treatment. Should schools and hospitals work a little bit harder to protect black STEM, pre-med and medical students? It is so hard to make it to college and medical school when you are black, and to be able to survive and make it through the long and expensive process. If white people do not want to have the same compassion for the African peoples, they should at least help protect us from discrimination and let us graduate so that we can take care of the suffering minorities in the USA community, and world. Black people are dying. I know white people want to hold on to their titles, but for us we just want to save lives. Black science and medical talent is being wasted in our world, not just in USA, but Europe, Africa and all. Black people are just as smart as everyone, including Asians, but we are stripped of everything. We hardly can live anywhere. Even with all my education; I am not the face people prefer to hire, and thus even finding a place to be and to live in USA is hard. White people just think that one is there because they deserve to be there. However, there are jobs that I should have been chosen for or schools that should have chosen me, but because of the whole racism track, I am stuck in a system that pushes me to the position of poverty.

Should racism continue in America, should black people be silent and just be servants and servers, should modern day slavery continue? I don’t mind changing white people’s diapers, but I know I can be a doctor and I should be a Pathologist’s Assistant. My talents and time is being wasted in the US; I have been tied by chains just because I chose to be a citizen and I am African. I must be unchained by greedy and racist people that do not want black people to sit next to them. EVMS just decided I shouldn’t be, just because they have power to waste all the hard work I put = modern day slavery; they can take what I earned and shove it under and keep silent and keep feeding mostly white students and using other black people and minorities as covers. While they drown the works of others. Or did I over-exaggerate. Is there racism at EVMS and was I or was I not a victim of it. Was a teacher making fun of me not racism, and a teacher marking me as a target not racism. It was so hard to go in class to sit on that desk every day, but I did. I passed and they made me even think that they will finally let me loose, then came discriminations at the hospitals in Virginia. Is racism not a thing because I am black and I am intelligent, should I not matter, it is okay to shut even one black person down just because white people can do whatever they want in this country. They even did whatever they wanted in my native country Zimbabwe. Is that okay? that even if I am now an American, my school can let preceptors write that I don’t know Anatomy and Pathology when it was my school that gave me a pass in those courses before they let me go to the hospitals. Is that okay that my school punishes me for preceptors having different opinions about me because I am black.

For the first time I was kicked out of school. I had done nothing wrong. I cannot afford a lawyer and also not a lot of people will think that I deserve to graduate from EVMS because I am black. Most people will agree with white people or white leaders or people with titles no matter what race even if they are wrong. What would you do if you are an African that EVMS didn’t protect from racism and discrimination after you paid tuition for three years; and in fact, if they dismiss you without a reason and you have no money for a lawyer? Is there no a reason to even take EVMS to court for not wanting you to graduate at your school? What would you do if some of the preceptors at the hospitals that don’t have credentials that you have or are about to earn get jealous of you, because they think that if you are black you shouldn’t be of higher titles or education than they are? What do you do when white ladies get jealous of you, and white men want to destroy you because you are an African young lady that is gifted? What would you do when a medical school makes it difficult for you to graduate, and work in your field of advanced studies? What will you do when you are tired of having meetings with white people that they schedule so that they can tell you that they are always right and you are always wrong, because they are professors and you are the student? Will you start all over every time white people think that an African shouldn’t be where she is in science and medicine, if they shut you down again and again? Is it okay for black people to be mistreated in the USA and even in their Africa, for them not to own most of what they should, work where they should and manage some things that they are gifted to manage?

I was told that if people don’t like me, I should make them like me, if I don’t get a good grade on clinicals I will be kicked out. This is after I was discriminated at the second clinical site during my Pathologist’s Assistant (PathA) clinical rotations. I might not even be allowed to share things that happened at EVMS, I was given documents to sign. But racism is wrong, so I will write. As medical professionals and science experts we are trained not to talk about racism, but to fit in. I experienced racism in medical school, just like I did sometimes during my undergraduate education.

To those that doubt me, I passed my basic sciences and I went to clinical rotations. I met good people, I was graded for the same work by some As and Bs and by some Fs (40-50%) for the same jobs. How is that even possible; I was doing the same work? The preceptors said opposite things. EVMS had let me go to clinical rotations because I passed. Why did they not protect me from racism at some of the hospitals they sent me to? Discrimination at EVMS started on the first day of orientation I told OCR. I felt like I was being warned or threatened. Three years later I was being dismissed without an explanation, none whatsoever. The school simply said in an email, not in a formal letter - that the committee has decided to dismiss me. I was not successful in getting an explanation after asking so that I can have grounds to appeal. Later I was told it is late to appeal. Then later the dean said I can send the appeal letter. Then after I sent it, I was told I cannot appeal. My appeal letter was about racism and discrimination. They shut me down immediately. In fact, it was clear during my time at school that some professors didn’t even take discrimination against black people seriously. Black lives matter, all lives matter; but somehow people will say to white students are you okay, but the black students just sit there all alone. We were not seen in the same light, our humanity was not recognized. There are white people that truly see blacks as equals, like prince Harry recognizing that Meghan is a person or princess Diana recognizing Africans as equal human beings; at least to their best capacity. Some professors, doctors, and other professionals carry the ability to relate to other people as equals regardless of their color, but some do not empathize with Africans or African Americans in the same manner they do other people. They feel annoyed by those that mention unequal treatment, and they are part of the discrimination that plagues our planet. Black people have also been educated by the education system, the slavery and colonization system that white people and ways of life are the most superior and civilized. We have all been educated in some ways to questions the brilliance and intelligence of black people, even if ourselves, relative or our neighbor is the person in question. However, some people even after being educated about discrimination, they choose to be racist (discriminating) when they could have fought racism (discrimination) that is within themselves.

Some white people say, don’t take it that way, they must be a misunderstanding or another explanation. All the excuses about why black people are disliked around the world, even at medical schools, even when walking in the hospital for an interview or on a campus. The truth is, because we are black, some people consciously or subconsciously decide that we don’t belong there or that we are just one of few black people they should know, and in fact, some will not treat us as equal humans to white humans, they just won’t. This happens when you see a doctor and a nurse, and it starts at home, kindergarten and it carries on when people become scientists and medical professionals. Africans are just disrespected and disliked, even they have been taught to dislike themselves and to view whites as superior. This is sick. So when a black person is discriminated at a medical school or a lab, even by a doctor, there is absolutely nothing they can really change much. Some might call it tough luck, or question where is our God, when evil of racism darkens our world. There are some black people that will be allowed to graduate, but this still masks the racism of the education institutions. There needs to be a change in America. The system of education, of jobs, and even housing discriminates black people, we are given no real healthy or good place to belong in our country. They can say go back to Africa, but even our Africa they have taken power of and resources from. In this international world, black people are discriminated by professors and doctors, and even pastors more than any other race, that is just the truth.

There is so much to say, there were so many racist words and actions that were ignored by EVMS. After successfully teaching for more than a year, it hit me again that I was not just discriminated on campus, but that when I was discriminated on paper and at hospitals, my school did nothing. I faced the committee knowing that if I mention racism or disability discrimination (anything like that), they will finally kick me out of the school. There were many discrepancies, and they was clear discrimination and it was hidden by dismissing me with a one sentence email without a reason. I was given no reason for dismissal, I was just dismissed, after being bullied and mistreated for 3 years. It was all hidden under the fact that I was given so-called grace when I was sick some days. I clearly passed my basic sciences, but they let it go. All the discriminating words that were said to me. One preceptor said “she is unteachable,” she held one Master’s degree and I was there studying for my second. Some white people cannot stand it when black people shine brighter than they are. They shut me down and sent me out after taking all my money, and after letting me work in the hospital for months without pay, as an intern. Modern day slavery.

The American Education system continues to discriminate black students, and to keep black people from certain jobs. It doesn’t matter if I am in Zimbabwe or USA, or South Africa, people have been taught that light skin people are better than darker ones, and the lighter skin people get a pass even when they didn’t really qualify as much as the darker at times. It’s like how there is a myth that Asians and Whites have higher IQ than African Americans or Africans. That is the dumbest thing. The books that white people write to make themselves feel better about themselves, when we are all equal and we all have good and bad days, we all have gifts and they are not all really race based either. Africans and African Americans and others would appreciate to be given true equal opportunities, a world where people are people, not called black, white, etc all so that racism can continue to survive. As soon as someone sees a black person or hears that the person is black, they have to think and wonder, are they just as good, are they dangerous, are they weird? Different is good. Just because I don’t want to hangout with you at Happy Hour, you should not say that I am a bad research technician. I am a professional, I don’t have to be your friend and I don’t have to find your jokes funny. That doesn’t mean that doctors and professors should only hire people that they find friendly when we are in this to do science and medicine. Black people or Africans might or might not want to hangout at unofficial meetings on their free time with white people or Asians, but that is no reason to hate. Different cultures are a beautiful thing, and people having the choice on how they want to spend their free time.
I spoke against racism and discrimination in Virginia, and they made sure that I will not graduate and that they take lots of my money too. In addition, they are like a gang, I was accused, they stood there as if they are innocent, all the white people because they had titles higher than I. They mocked me and looked down on me and my ideas because I am black, because I am African. It was the same in Zimbabwe, it is the same in USA, it is the same around the world. Black people are silenced, not because we are not intelligent and great at our work, but because some white people just decide to shut us down.

Love to all Africas, to all African Americanss, Europeans, other Americans, Asians and Everyone in the world. I hope that one day racism against Africans will come to an end and discrimination against certain types of blacks, darker blacks and the sick or disabled. Thank you!

I don’t know why, but I love people that persecute me with the forgiveness that can only comes from God.

I promise you racism is one of the hardest things to write about, let alone about medical schools and hospitals - it’s like talking about your bosses in public. They will surely make sure that you will never be hired anywhere, it can even be life threatening. We are all brought up to fear what the haters can do to us. But enough is enough; we must talk about hate until people get tired of hatred and injustice. If you are African or black, you can’t escape it from almost every tribe and nation of this world, even other blacks, because the world has been taught to hate Africans, or blacks (and their descendants), to see them only as pitiful and indeed of charity; but the world sometimes cheers and sometimes hates African brilliance and gifts if they shine a little bit too bright. The world, including Africa has been trained to dim that African or black light in order to let the European or white light stand out. But is that even living. The world is all suffocating, because one race is being beat down like nobody’s business just so that it doesn’t outshine the others; then in reality race and nationality is not important but we all are. We all must be allowed to shine our lights and save humanity from destroying itself because we are one human race.

I scored the highest score on the first board mock Exam at EVMS before I was dismissed from school. I find that fascinating since EVMS didn’t defend me against racism, so I do accuse them of racism and also forgive them at the same time. I just hope they protect future black students and Asians, women, the sick and disabled from hatred and pain. A medical school, is supposed to lead the world against racism and in showing empathy and compassion, not only on the mission statement, but by actions. Virginia hospitals must fight racism. Our patients are dying. Black patients are patients just like whites, there should be no race in medicine and science except in trying to use genetics to save lives; all employees, interns and patients must be treated with respect and as human beings that all deserve the best we can give or share.

Africans have been murdered all the way from Africa to the West; please stop blocking black students from doing their jobs, there is no white supremacy, we all live and we all die - you must unleash black talents in science and medicine so that we can improve science and medicine for future generations. We are coming from poverty to save people in need, medical schools and hospitals (and all systems or the system in the USA) need to prioritize human lives, all lives, not money and races. You must not shut down Africans and their descendants and their abilities; let everyone shine to their own God gifted talent and be given what they earn. I have taken care of many people during their last days, especially white people, and humans are just humans, black and white all alike, we come and we go; so open all doors to science and medicine to Africans and their descendants by also punishing or disciplining those that practice racism and discrimination whether they are students, faculty or supervisors. God bless you!

We cannot call ourselves civilized when we have racism in our nation, scientists and doctors should not be part of racism at all; but should be the ones working very hard to eradicate it. They must be the ones to educate and ask African peoples, black people to be trained and offered more scholarships and grants so that they can be the scientists and doctors that God created them to be. Then may be we can then have a better grip on this pandemic. Africans can do science and medicine and we are just at the beginning, we can take science and medicine to another level because God created all human beings equal but we have been put in chains by nations. Medical schools and hospitals in the world need to release us and feed us; give Africa and its descendants what belongs to them so that we can help this world and save lives. We are by no means inferior, and we might be the next answer that science and medicine has never seen before. Schools must stop hindering and kicking us out, especially when we are innocent, our kids and people must not be chained or given punishments that are too harsh than other people. God will not take this world to another level without Africans; black people matter and must never be hated, everyone must be loved, there must be no racism, ethnicism, or any type of discrimination. Even the disabled and sick have their purpose in this world.

My time, talents and gifts are being wasted, just because some white people hate black people, especially the darker they come; but this country and this world will lose whatever God was about to do in me and others if they continue to hate black people. I wanted to treat certain kind of sick patients, may be do surgery, but I find myself talking about the psychological illness called racism because it is very terrible to our world. It is bad for both the discriminating and the discriminated, it is bad for our world. Africa is highly gifted and talented because of times like these, you must not keep shutting us down, those that are shutting us down. We have created many things that white people have taken credit for. We cannot keep living like this. These are the times when people must be freed so that they can help this world, with Covid19, cancer, other illnesses, Global warming and everything. We are born to be scientists and doctors and schools and hospitals should not just take us to be students so that they can look good on the outside, but they must stop the racism. Our businesses must be recognized and jobs should stop discriminating and while pretending not to be discriminating on the outside. Poverty is highly concentrated among blacks and because the medical system is losing mostly black lives - we need to change this. Medical schools and hospitals should be the ones leading a movement to destroy racism in this world. Racism is a serious psychological problem and we need to treat it and do research not so that we can look down on Africans and their descendants, but so that we can remedy and cure the racism. Everyone that is employed in science and medicine must be given experiences to help serve the minority populations in the USA, so as to hope to grow their compassion locally. We need health professionals, doctors and educators that are not racist consciously or subconsciously, equality and the talk of one human race must become the new reality of our world. If something can be taught, it can be untaught, racism was taught thus we must educate against it.

I love spending time with the elderly, and tutoring, but I am able to do so much more - but I feel caged by the system that created slavery and colonization; yet people black and white are crying for help. I remember my first real cancer client was a white lady, it was different working and being a caregiver than working in research trying to help find a cure for cancer. I wish that there was no serious poverty in the US, that it wasn’t so difficult to be black, a woman that is in science and medicine. It is so hard to work around people that aren’t tuned into the humanity of black people enough. I know about many races and cultures, but I wish that white Americans could be educated more thoroughly about the beautiful things about black people, Africans, African Americans and all. We are real people, not just a charity case, and we are scientists and inventors too; we are civilized and everything, because of ourselves and not because of others. God has gifted people of the whole world with wisdom and knowledge and the more people stop oppressing us, the more we can participate together with everyone under same conditions and opportunities to help advance things in this world. I often wonder of all the things I could have done by now if I wasn’t so poor and if people weren’t so ignorant about Africans and the equal beauty and excellence that they bring to this universe. We need to work together, and racism can come to an end, is we truly want to be civilized and advanced in real science and medicine; because God was wise enough to put knowledge and wisdom in all of us. The greedy cannot go too far by themselves, we need each other. Africa is not God’s mistake, Africans and their descendants that are being used to clean toilets and cook and being hindered from science and doctor’s chairs, they are the missing piece to curing cancer and things, I am sure of it. We are quite brilliant, I know my people; and that God won’t let greedy people discover things unless they share. Racism is about greed and power, but advancing in science and medicine is about letting the whole world be free to work where they are truly called. Black kids, black adults like me, we are just waiting to see when the next hospital, lab or school is going to finally let us in; and if they are actually going to let us work; or if they are going to hinder us and doubt us (making it a suffocating environment). People like me want to be able to go to work and breath because we love people. We want to be able to give the country and the world the best that we can give. When our education is being played games with by certain white people just because they are in power, and jobs, then we can just sit like caregivers, cleaners and babysitters and watch white people work on their own. We won’t be able to add our part, and to give the solutions that God put in us, if we remain chained by racism. For the world to be a better place, it takes everyone doing what they are supposed to do. I don’t mind cleaning and things, but I know that I am called to do other things, but when schools like EVMS take us in just to discriminate us and clinical sites make fun of us just because we are black, then we cannot help you. Our people are dying, people of all races are dying of something. All scientists and medical professionals must be set free and given what they need in order to work, There are too many barriers set before us, and they need to be removed; especially racism.

Arriving at a job interview, one P.I. saw that I was black when coming down the stairs. For a second the P.I. paused and wanted to run back up the stairs, but Pitt and UPMC has a no discrimination policy. I knew I was the most qualified from what he said and I also knew he wouldn’t hire me before he told me. This is the United States? We are wasting black talent, African talent, we are wasting doctors, and other professionals and lots of people are in need of doctors, nurses, PAs and all. We can do better. Hospitals and Schools need to totally destroy racism, better than even churches or at the same rate, because churches do own hospitals and schools too. A true scientist must be wise enough to know that God created all human beings equal and the African scientists and doctors, African Americans and other descendants are the missing piece. We are advancing but we are struggling, because the racism is real; nobody should be discriminated against, it’s holding us back. Those discriminating, it isn’t a good thing for their own soul either. There must be a motion of love and equality in schools and hospitals, in our education system; we must work to eradicate racism for good; or otherwise we will continue to all suffer, all races will suffer. I cannot do too much that I wish I could do, money was taken from me, and then a school was taken from me. A waste. I have to try to restart and make up for the mess that EVMS created, every time I have to try to fix something that racism has done. The horrible lies about Africans must stop. We are by no means inferior, God was careful to make us all equal, so that we can only be the best as one human race.
I like teaching, I like being a caregiver, but I know I should be a doctor by now, a Pathologist Assistant the minimum, but after all the work I did at the hospital during this pandemic even handling Covid19 specimens, EVMS got rid of me instead of finally putting racism to an end. Denying that racism exist is very shallow. This world has been educated that Africans are inferior and it is time to uneducated this nonsense, because what kills black people, will kill others too. Only the truth will set all of us free; God will unleash his answers through Africans and their descendants, because that is who He is, science and medicine and all wisdom comes from God; Africans like me believe that God is still God. Equality matters. It will be so much easier to let African scientists and black scientists and health workers do work in their communities, than it will be for white people to go into communities they are afraid of even though black people are not scary at all. It is tim,e time to release black people, black kids so that they can get a real education; it is time to destroy the slavery system ideas that still plague our nation. Our doctors and professors need to be given a real African and black education by real African doctors and scientists, they need to go beyond the poverty regions, but go explore the real beauty of Africans and Africa so that they can be educated better. Education can be done by Africans too; we have things to show the world, and doctors and professors are not ready to educate African Americans until they get educated about the good and bad history of African Americans and Africa. We are all human beings and diversity is God’s signature of a Master piece. Even if I don’t get to finish what I intend, you must release the next generations of African peoples from racism, everyone that can must do their part in this; my people must all be set free around this whole world because black lives matter, Africans and their descendants matter, all people matter equally.

When I was a child, I did not know what is race; stop teaching kids to be racist. All I knew when I was first living was that I was a person and that I was alive and studying people and my environment. I would like to think that we are all scientists to some degree, born to discover what is going on in the world and who is around. I could have been quiet at EVMS, but it wouldn’t have mattered. I was the darkest, I was an African, so I was something different, something unique, something that was questionable. I was the black girl that always sat around many Caucasian and Asian scientists and doctors, and students. I don’t want to be the only one, a lot of African Americans deserved to be where I was; they must be released, taught and allowed to be who they really are. All nations and tribes deserve to be doing science and medicine and without being discriminated or targeted, neither should they be isolated or ignored or not taken seriously, misunderstood or simply just kicked out. There should be no racism in America of all places in the world. I believe it is possible for America to fight and eradicate racism, and that it takes all races to finally do that when they all agree that they are one human race and must live to show it and enjoy it.

I always wonder how much fun I would have if people were immune of discrimination; the only way to fight hate is by love, even love for those that hate us. We have come a long way, but we can do so much better, we are the United States of America, where all nations and tribes must truly be the unity and sight to see; this is the land where Africans, Europeans, Asians and others gather together with the Native Americans as one nation, under God, where true liberty and justice must be seen like no other place in the whole world. I am waiting for the day, that this nation will raise African Americans in true recognition and with reparations for slavery. The day when African peoples are no longer bound , but given a means of freedom that will destroy all the remnant works for slavery. If one of our races suffers, we all suffer; because we are one human race, we affect each other, and I hope a time will come when racism is no longer a thing in this nation. My hard work in this nation, and how I was brought down just because I am African, showed me that even though I knew it was difficult for African Americans to do things they can do, it can even become almost impossible when others continuously knock them down even today - modern day slavery. I am waiting for the day that all my people will be set free, Africa and its people all matter, all people matter equally and must be treated equally with the same empathy and compassion, respect, and kindness all summarized as love, which is God’s signature of his identity. As a nation under God, I am proud to be an American, so that we can say racism will die one day because God is still on His throne, and He shall not abandon it nor can He be removed, our Alpha and our Omega. To all people love, and love one another, we are one people and only together can we reach the great understanding of all truths and lights, the gifts that money, diamonds or gold cannot buy. We are the treasure, God’s master piece is all human beings and the freedom of all nations, the Jews and African peoples included. I might not be a doctor or scientist I should be; but God has me be great at many things so that I can go through these chains and reveal that my people are still in slavery, they are suffering from the fruits of it and need to be set free completely, because there is no good reason for racism; it makes our nation miserable when we should be rejoicing by now. Racism is cruel; and it suffocates those that practice it and those that are its victims. There is no one way of life, the African way matters, just like the European way, we must truly be united, especially on the soil of the United States, together with the Native Americans and others that have suffered much, because we have all suffered from this hatred and it must be eradicated; racism must die, so that people can live.

I am just an African, some will say what do I know or even understand, but this is me, I know I am a human being and I have always been, thus may God be praised because Marilyn W. Shumba was here, she has gone through the African and Caucasian and other education studies and she has seen, she has spoken, and she will be done. God called her a Zimbabwean and then he called her an American so that she can both see and speak, and even be kicked out and things - may Freedom ring and racism die, so that Africans and their descendants can truly be freed from chains of colonizations and slavery, my people have given enough, they need their food, clothes and shelter the minimum, they have earned it. I am nobody, when I am gone, I am gone, I am just passing through, set my people free and this nation will be blessed multiple times. I am brown as chocolate, with hair black as midnight, with teeth almost as white as milk, I am a simple African young woman, when I am gone, I am gone, I might not even be remembered, but that’s okay, because what matters is that racism will die one day, you will see; I was just glad to pass through and give it some punches and kicks, because I am African, brown as sand and unapologetic about God presenting me to the world; I am here, living and breathing, all I know is I am an equal human being and racism’s worst nightmare, I will slay racism until it sees the light of God come in; racism is going to die and my people will live.

One love to people of all nations, God is real, love has come to us.

March 22, 2023, Marilyn W. Shumba, M. Sc.
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Imagine a conversation with God telling him what is happening in the world, in the US when he sends you to grow there from Africa.

Dear God, I have studied and mastered the white people’s knowledge to the best of my ability and I wanted to do more. When they saw that I was getting pretty too good, they kicked me out. They are still not quite sure what kind of human me and others are yet, but they seemed convinced that I was some type of trouble, may be they are afraid that Africans are on the rise, you know how they are, always afraid of black people. I have tried different kind of approaches, it’s all the same, they are not comfortable with my brownness and uniqueness and even similarities to them, some of them yes. I don’t know what is going to happen next , but I will keep you posted, well, oh yes, you can see and hear everything, haha God you are funny. I am going to be the one waiting to hear from you, and I hope it will be you. You know us Africans we will always be waiting to hear if the creator or rainmaker will speak. There is something called science that is going around here and medicine, as you know, it is quite exciting, and I joined it. Some people don’t seem to really believe in miracles, and they definitely don’t think that God has been in Africa that long, and that Africans have always been doing great. Some people say you don’t exist, and they even say you are like this character called Santa Claus that they lie to kids about. I love them you know, because you live in me, but they don’t know what to do with me, I am different to them, that is what they think, even though we all have the same anatomical structures. I am hoping that there will be some peace in this nation, the United States. Some of the black people and other minorities are on the streets and everywhere, they have so many barriers that block them from going to school, get to jobs and such, things that help get an income. Yes the ancestors and even modern day people have given a lot; so we are hoping that the nation remembers you and gives the African Americans reparations from slavery. It might seem unnecessary for some, but it is very sad for sure. Some of white people do not realize that the black people are just their brothers and sisters and their equals. Yes, some are even related by a common ancestor, because I learned usually the fathers used to reject their black child in history. Now some people are quite happy together in interracial marriages. It will surely take time, but racism will die, thank you! I know in my heart even white people are my people like black people, everyone is, but they don’t think that I am their people. We are just waiting for you God. Their science thing and their medicine cannot really save; not when the black ones are being left behind, so yes, they do really need you down here. Some of the white people are quite interesting, they are really suffering from this racism and they need to be cured. Your love is truly the best cure and I hope one day they will feel better. Thank you for loving all of us God. Sometimes it is amazing how we can endure being so brown and hated for no good reason, and yes it is painful, but thank you for bringing me into the world to help my white brothers and sisters see that God has not made a mistake, black lives do count; you are keeping good watch and good count, thank you God! Well Good night God, have a good day, I will talk to you tomorrow, if not between my sleep. I just can’t wait for the day that the United States will overcome racism, but I believe it shall come, thanks to you God, hallelujah and Amen, thank you so much for loving us and putting love in the atmosphere.

March 22-23, 2023, Marilyn W. Shumba, M. Sc.